nothingmatters

2010-10-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

Day 9 - Dedication to someone you wish you could meet.

Thanks captain ben chancey, for those fishing tips i got from you. HAHAHA.

Day 10 - Dedication to someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.

Noone.

Day 11 - Dedication to a deceased person you wish you could talk to.

Noone .

Day 12 - Dedication to the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.

Thanks for the months, although it all ended, but still, thanks for those memories, but im happy that it happened, so now, i realised ive found my special lady of my life .

Peace is all i need in my changed life.

2010-10-26T02:22:00.004+08:00

1Updating,

Day 8 - Dedication to your favorite friend

I dont have one, sorry.

Ps. Oh, change everyth in my blog, not everything bah, just feel my cbox colour all those abit cui, so do new one, and stuffs like my mixpod and create a formspring account out of boredom, Feel free to ask me any question ( Any decent ).

Problematic world,
A guy who wants havoc in the past, but peace now, how hard to achieve what i want ? I`ll keep on standing and trying to bring that peace into my life.

Patience wont work out.

2010-10-25T03:00:00.003+08:00

Updating (:

Day 6 - Dedication to a stranger.

Hi stranger which i met at a fishing tackle shop, thanks for the kindness, you`re from america, my dream country to go, and i really like you guys there, thanks for the kindness and your bright smile.

Day 7 - Dedication to a ex-crush.

Hey, thanks for letting me know that patience wont work out, thanks for everything, and thanks for not giving me that chance, so that now, im with chua xinyi, altho life with her is rough and tough, but its gonna get better, she said that, so thanks for everything that you made me learn.

Everyday is a challenge.

2010-10-24T06:46:00.005+08:00

Goodmorning world, altho i havent slept yet :O Posting my blog before going to bed, due to that dedication thing, its addictive!

Day 5 - Dedication to my dreams.

My dreams, to go abroad for studys, to country like USA, and of course, to get babyy her ring 9years 10months later (: HAHAHAHA, so thank you my dreams to let me have a aim in life from this year, 11august on, and let me realise that dreams can come true if i work for it, and bring me back from my straying roads in my history in life.

Goodmornight world, off the bed! (y)

Anger that needs to be smoothen.

2010-10-23T00:42:00.005+08:00

Posting (: for yesterday, 22Oct`10.

Day 3 - Dedication to my parents.

Thanks for bring me up to who i am today, but fuck you for everyth that you made that nerd suffer, and fuck you for shanneng and all the stuffs you indirectly shooted to my friends.

23Oct`10

Kind of fucked up for stuffs today, nbcb. But i found out an article on google, for 1week of anger you accumilate in life, you lose 10years of health, LOL, i know, but whatever, theres a fucking saying that goes `Never did that, fear no evil.` And i promised that nerd to bring down my temper and never go to violence alr, peaceful life babyy, i`ll make it happen.

Day 4 - Dedication to my siblings.

Hi, irritating noobs, thanks for being my siblings and puting the smile on me with your cuteness, but sometimes, DONT BE SO ANNOYING OKAY! haha, but still, your bigbro has grown up due to your sister-in-law, so yeah, you guys are my siblings and i`ll definitely do my part as a elder brother(: and will never anyhow lay finger on you all anymore.

Fuck the past, bring in my new present and future.

2010-10-21T03:47:00.004+08:00

Hi, back to post at this late hour once again, its 3:48 now and im posting, just a random update okeh.

Day 2 - Dedication to my crush.

LOL, No dedication anymore for any crushcrush thing, one retarded chua xinyi was once my crush but now mine, there isnt a crush for me anymore, Booyeah! ♥

Friends does matters.

2010-10-20T00:50:00.004+08:00

Hi, back to blogging cause i found out a fun dedication thing. Hahaha,

Monday went to vivo with rachel lum, shanong, and lastly, my retarded babyy (:, was overall fun, splashing here and there, gan xiasway only. Haha, then rachel and ong went back, while me and babyy went to plaza sing jalan.

Tuesday which just past, nua at home, till babyy come find me, then around 8 babyy went home, then now im here blogging.

Now blogging-.-

Day 1 - Dedication to my best friend.

Alot leyy, Pal singh is the biggest one and theres a few more, so no biased, lets just dedicate to all.

To all my bestfriend, thanks for being there and letting me know people walk in and would stay, all i need is true friends without any mask around me, thats all, and i know you guys are the one that ive been searching for, you guys made me what i am today and in the future, so thank you. (:

Lost of everything.

2010-10-09T02:10:00.001+08:00

hi, ive a sudden lost again of my fighting spirit, it seems like nothing goes well, oh well, -'- mind, -'- how this world turns out to be, -'- everyth. but still, i`ll hang on & i dont wish to fall.

bye,
ive officially lost my fighting spirit.
darnerl.

last post till idk when, maybe when im 101% the old darnerl, i`ll be back, sorry guys. its just that, mindset sucks, life suck too.

The love of two.

2010-10-03T01:29:00.003+08:00

9 days more, baby(:

Hm, ive got nothing to post, but that nerd baby of mine, chuaxinyi ask me to post.
Okehh, ive studies today for a few hours, and im fucking proud alright ?, but i somehow feel weird not having someone beside me to study with me, wtf, and my meal, i havent got a meal from that nerd! she said she was going to cook, but till now, no cook, no nothing! nerd ♥ having mood swing alot for the past few days, i know this sound weird but ya, me and baby have alot of mood swing-.- knn, get angry for no reason, but today, weird, no have, totally awesome. haha, someone sending phone kiss alot today, crazy max. okay thats all,

bye,
baby, 9 more days, its 2 months, and aft that 2months, its just left with 9years 10months, you know i know and you know when your hubby says it, he means it ♥
darnerl.

Change for the better, and for the sake of the future.

2010-09-26T01:28:00.003+08:00

Hello, its been a loooongggg time since i update my blog, MYSELFFFFF (: babywifeyy asking me to update, so in order to win that cooking from her, im updating right now, she dont even know how to on a fire, i help her, and ask her to just cook a packet of instant noodle for me, its like it will take her 12345678910 years! but srsly, before i eat that noodle when she cook for me a few days later, i better prepare okehh my toiletbowl seat, some antibiotics and alot of anti-diarrhea pills :B, im sooo dead when she sees this. Oh, ive decided not to go for any training and settle down, be a nerd to study and thats my last step of turning over a new leaf, cause, as a fellow singaporean, we need to learn to care and share, CHEH ! no lahh, cause i dont want YOU, yes i know you`re the first reader to read this post babyy, YOU, i dont want you to get worried for anything, i want that smile on your face every single day, i want to hear you say HMPH, say I DONT WANT TALK TO YOU, say GO AND SLEEP NERD, for as long as my life goes (: and also, fightfightfight, whats the point anyway, i`ll only make people around me get worried, violence doesnt solve everything, i realised babywifeyyy that nerd really do change me alot, and now, i did changed (:,

bye,
cause whatever i do, i`ll think of you, cause for whatever ive changed, its all for that smile on your face ♥
darnerl.

♥♥♥ .

2010-09-23T00:44:00.005+08:00

IM A NOOB, HEHEHEHE ♥♥♥ .
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ (:

IM SAD TODAY, SUPER SAD.

Cherish every moment with you.

2010-09-21T01:09:00.005+08:00

Hello (: , CXinyi , DarnerlLimYuanZheng's super sweet, dearest, beloved girlf of his (Y) . Im posting for Monday, 20thSep2010 but the time have past 12 so, post will be on Tuesday, 21stSep2010, Understand? ._. Im in my own room without lights only computer's light, fucking dark ): . Okay back to topic, i wanted to study just now, i swear. But im way too tired so i went to take a nap. Babyy called, chat awhile. Gonggong one, omg :O . He asked me go back sleep till 11, he will call me wake up but he didn't ! I woke up myself at 12am and i called him. Chitchat and he fell asleep once again, spam calls and spam messages, he also wont wake up ._. Pig jiu shi pig (Y) . I cant get back to sleep so im here to update his blog and facebook while there's nobody to nag me to get back to sleep, hehehehe. Babyy saw this, sure laugh/angry :P Seriously, babyy like my grandmother so naggy. Opps, i said something wrong :X Hahahaha! Noobshit, he updated my blog without me asking him to do so, what a good boyf ^^v . but he didn't update his own blog. What's this, nerd. Im in a super good mood today, i dont know why. I smiled through out the day (: I bet babyy is happy to hear and see this. Ohya, babyy spent 2days doing my book promotion for me. Thankyouverymuch. People ask him play dota but he rejected and continue with my book promotion, seriously what a good boyf eh :D Loveyouttm ♥ . Seriously, he had done alot things to make me happy every single day, i guess im the happiest girl in the world :O to have such a boyf like him (Y) . Okay, babyy is in his lalaland already and im here alone. No one is awake to entertain me! ): . Bored die. I guess, i wont be meeting babyy tomorrow. Having cca and babyy at night got night class till 9. Sad for him but good for him too! :D Study laaaz nerd. Ok, im addicted to the word, nerd. I dont know why. Babyy and his friend nah, everyday noob here noob there, nerd here nerd there, cake here cake there ._. Hahahaha!, sounds funny and weird. And lastly, Babyy you're not cute ok, how many times must i tell you this? but but, you're not cute yet handsome ^^v . I know you're smiling to yourself. Dont shy (: Kinda long eh, this post. Hehehehe, im bored laaaz. Wtfbbqteletubbies ._. It's 2am now, i dont know what to do. I shall end this post.

Babyy, thanks for everything you have done for me. I promise you to be happy every single day no matter what happens, even it's the last day for me to see you, i still put my last smile on. Iloveyou ♥♥♥ . I know you love me more than life.

Hate this feeling-'-

2010-09-18T14:02:00.002+08:00

Hi blog, im speaking to you, i really feel like ending myself right now. I aint joking, alot of thoughts running inside me, i really hate this feeling.

bye,
....
darnerl.

You two just dont understand.

2010-09-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

All i can say is, im fucking broken, i hate my life. i hate all that is happening to me, think you two understand me?, im sorry, you are wrong, i hate you two.

bye,
babyy, im sorry for all the suffering ive caused, im sorry, ill be a better boyf from now on.
darnerl.

A girl that had made a difference.

2010-09-12T05:32:00.003+08:00

Noob`girlf edited this(:

bye,
babyyyyy, 1month 1day, i love you ♥
darnerl.

First month!

2010-09-11T03:49:00.003+08:00

Happy 1stMonth Babyyyy !(:
Noob, one month le, alot things we`ve been through aye. Tears rolled down can fill up a bottle le, but whatever we`ve been through, are part and parcel of every relationship, its no different in ours, its just obstacles that we have to go through, but i promise you, no matter what is thrown at us, i will hold on to you and go through it with you ♥ People says, every relationship nowadays ends in just 1,2,3,4 months, but ours, sorry no. My promise, i made it, i`ll definitely do it, 10years later, i will marry you, i will make you the girl in that white grown, i will hold up your hand and put that ring onto your finger, i will be by your side every single night, because thats all im hoping for now, and thats because, you aint just another normal girl, who walk into my life and stays for awhile , and then leave. But instead, you`re that girl who walks into my life, and will definitely stays there, till everything in my life ends, till when my heart stops, thats when i will use my last breath to tell you `Babyy, i`ve prove everything, everything came true, and lastly, i love you ♥`

bye,
Babyyy, I want to say you`re my kind, i want to say you`re that mine, I want to tell you that I love you more than life ♥
darnerl.

Parents just dont understand.

2010-09-09T23:57:00.005+08:00

Mood is totally down now, so much talks for what, more you say, the more we kids wont understand, want to know why ? cause you parents dont fucking understand how we feel, and why should we ?, im mf-15 right now, altho not that old and matured enough, i got my own fucking thoughts, keep say we wont last, keep say we wont be together, thats ONE of the few HUNDREDS reason why i fucking hate you, dont want feel like talking to you, i`ll rather you are dead, i wrote that letter for you because i thought, when you get in, you can quit smoking, you think i dont care ?, bullshit, but what happen ?, you came out and continue smoking, you want to say that im ignorant ?, i got a whole bunch of stuffs to say in your face, so shut up, i rather you dont give a fucking damn about me, just give the money you should, that will do. srsly, you made no inspiration to my life, instead, you give me a horrible childhood, starting from 2006, when you fucking changed. so, dont expect any returns, cause even if im a multi-billionaire or whatever shit my brain can lead me to in the future, i wont give you any fucking cent, but return to you what i owe you. because srsly, you dont understand me more than my mum. all you do, is just thinking, if you doesnt scold me, it isnt care about me, and ill go bad, ill go back your ways, ill not study, because i lack of a _ _ _ _ _ _`s care, comeon, im sick and tired of all these scoldings, srsly, ill do better if you just do your part and lay the food on the table for the whole family, and not give a fucking damn about me, when you went in, at that point, i act as though i dont care, but i do, but now, srsly after what you say not just only about me, but her, and my friends, forget it, i dont give a damn anymore, i hate you more than you will know.

bye,
im sorry but, i`ll last with her even if you disagree, and want me to study, i`ll still study so i dont need you to tell me, but instead, reflect on what you did, even if you say you regret now, its no fucking use, cause, you know what you did to my mum. and i fucking hate you at that point even when i was only 4 i think.
darnerl.

2010-09-08T16:50:00.002+08:00

Baby, dont want tell you cause i want you to see for yourself lahh :B .
Hi readers, its 4 nearly 5 now im blogging , came back from bbq ystd morning , quite shag when back, shanong & baby came my house, took a nap with that noobgirlf of mine ♥ THEN WAKE UP SHANONG LOST -.-, went back home ! wtfbbq -.- baby went home at 8pm like that ♥, bbq did nothing much, quite fucked up with some peoples , cb , want go home go home lahh hoh. ton with shanshan, kinyeow, weikang, anna, terrence, shanneng, baby♥ . baby & i went to jetty at around 10pm, came back 3 person drunk till toh, kinyeow least expected. sibeh awww ah.__. okay dont want post liao,

bye,
baby, im sorry for being the cause of your tears everytime, but srsly, still i love you ♥
darnerl.

2010-09-05T23:29:00.001+08:00

Baby asked me to update , so i listen lahh horhh , awesome boyf ♥ , okay , baby`s coughing now , and havent had dinner , wtffffbbqqqqqq ! , now shanong at my house , ton till tmrw , bbq , mhahaha ! okay , mac is here , go makan ,

bye,
baby , 10years down the road , i`ll show you that the promise i made , is true ♥ and prove that everlasting love , do exist ♥
darnerl.

2010-09-05T02:07:00.002+08:00

Hi , here to update , ive got no fucking mood now , stuffs just keep turning around in my mind , i feel so fucking fail , i feel so fucked up in my mind , can someone just tell me to stop ? or am i just thinking too much ? ,

bye,
bby , nothing can be ever compared to you , you know it . i love you ♥
darnerl.

2010-09-04T02:15:00.002+08:00

Hello readers , its 2:17am nao and im here updating bloggggg , nothing much happen this few days while i was away from blogging , baby`s sick ._. , flu till nose red machiam tomato , noobcakeeee , okay , actually i am force to update , so heres my update and ima jump into bed , watch some shows and lastly chase that noob girlf of mine to bed ,

bye,
bby , you`re welcome for the present , and lastly , iloveyou ♥ you`re not a noob , dumb , bad , whteverbad girlf at all k ♥
darnerl.

Chapter 110810 . ♥

2010-09-01T14:00:00.002+08:00

It's 2pm now. Today have no school ((: I bet this dumb,stupid,idiot,noob boyf of mine still sleeping. I guess, Shanneng w someone gg his house now. .___. Both of them sure having fun but poor little boyf need to face the computer alone. Hahaha! Im staying at home facing the computer too, doing my book promotion. Someone help me please! Seriously, i dont know what to write! -'- Arghhhh. Shit laaaz, LOL. Im seriously bored. No one entertain me, wtfbbqteletubbies. Ok, shall go play few games of audi (:

Goodbye luvs,
Babyy ; Chapter 110810 . ♥

2010-08-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

baby ask me update one , knn force me only.
eh anyone can help me drag this noob girl to see a doctor ? steadyyy , she vomited for the pass days and dont want go see doctor , cb . noobcakeeee

bye,
bby , i`ll tell the whole world how much you mean to me , because the whole world represents you.
darnerl.

2010-08-27T17:43:00.001+08:00

I AM A NOOB. I AM A NERD. I AM A NOOB AND WILL ALWAYS BE.
NOBNOBNOBNONBOOBNOOBNBONBONONBOB

2010-08-24T01:08:00.002+08:00

hi readers , im here to update my blog & going to bed after this , bby gona kill me for sleeping so late , mhaha ._. , that sleepyhead of mine is currently sleeping from just now 10 plus till nao >.> , but good narhh k . today school start , and for the past few days ive been wishing for school holiday to start asap ! , & i have a sudden urge to get to poly & then enlist into NS soon narhh , just get me out of secondary life k ._. hmm , got nothing more , i shall go to bed .

bye,
bby , for you , ill change to show that , you really is important to me ♥
darnerl.

Best Boyfriend Ever, ♥

2010-08-22T03:41:00.001+08:00

Hello Everyoneeeee :B Hahahaha. Ok, last few days something happened. You know, you shutup. Dont know, dont ask. (: He blamed himself not being a good boyfriend, cant make me smile easily, aint a sweet boyfriend, dont treat me well enough and etc ...
But seriously, i think that he is the best boyfriend for the present and a good husband in the future :D I mean it. Even he ask NOW, ' Will you marry me '. I will definitely* marry him ♥. I know he really cares for me and stuffs. But i always bully him, i know. Im sorry for bullying you at times eh .___. Hahaha. Seriously, there's alot good things we've done and gone through within this 1week 4days. This is how a boyfriend that i wanted long time ago. When i get angry, he will try to calm me down and talk to me nicely even though i give him bad attitude. When i cried, he will hug me and pat on my back. ( He even cried while he saw me crying, he's heart hurts. ) When i ignored him, he tried to make me laugh and continue talk to him. Hahahaha. I still remember what has happened on 20thAugust2010 at night. We somehow quarrel over dont know what and i cried badly. He cried too, he hugged me tightly but i shouted at him and ask him to let go of me. When i tried to get up and walk away, he hold my hand tightly and dont want let me go. But suddenly he let go. I walked down to another floor. I heard he cried and hit the wall twice. My heart hurts even worst can. -'- I blamed myself. I walked back to him, hugged him tightly and cried out badly. Super bad can, dont believe. Ask him :B There's many more to say but i just know that i seriously love him ttm and i only want him ♥. Althought we're not happy with something or what, we still love each other no matter what. I sometime think back and asked myself, am i the third party ? o.o and if we're not together now, will all this happen ? o.o But in the end, i found my true love, which is him and i got all my answer already :B I bet he feel shy now or even maybe crying eh. (: Babyy, i trust you. Iloveyou ♥.

It's 3.33am now, im on the phone with him and ShanNeng is tonning at his house. Two people tonning only, fun only -.- LOL. Hahahaha, and he keep complain that he is super bored. LOL. Me too :B Shall end this post, babyy go sleep early tonight. Goodnight ♥.

2010-08-20T00:25:00.004+08:00

today was a really bad day ,

baby , i know being with me , even though its just a week out , its alr terrible for you , i know alot people doesnt want or think that we could last . Baby , im really sorry for all the things i put you through , i thought i could be an awesome boyf , but it turns out im just a terrible one , all i do from day 1 is just making you unhappy in everything , whenever i want to make you smile , i`ll fail . even though i really put you as my first , it wont change the fact im just a useless boyf . really im sorry , i dont know what im doing now , all i could think about is really , im sorry , sorry for all the things i put you through , sorry for all the unhappiness i let you suffered , sorry for things i did , sorry for the bitchiness of my family , but as i told you , the whole world can disagree , dont wantna accept us , think we couldnt last , object us , but ill still hang on k .

bye,

baby , im really sorry , im a 101% useless boyf , i know .

darnerl.

2010-08-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hello readers , im here to blog (: , babyy , shanong and that carrieNG came my house today , intention was to study , but fuck , we failed -.- , knn . OHOH , i pass my mock test , NICE LAHH , common test , you`re just fucking dead k .

bye,
babyy , whatever happens , ill go through it with you , i promise ♥
darnerl.

2010-08-16T01:03:00.004+08:00

Babyy wanted to drink starbucks just now eh .__. Hahaha :D It's 1.22am now, we both still haven sleep and on phone. Just now i told him that i wanted to study for later's paper( History and English Lit) but after hours i did not touch until my book yet ): Arghhh, gonna fail badly this time. Fuck it seriously -.- Althought im super lazy to post my own blog but i myself dont know why come into this account and post his blog too. I know im weird. Hahahaha. I feel like posting something long but i have nothing to post about. I guess this babyy is studying eh .__. Goodboy (L) Ok, shall not continue le. Goodnight, do well in your exams uh. Iloveyou♥

2010-08-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

Hello , im being forced by my noob girlf on phone to update my blog , WHILE SHE DONT WANT TO UPDATE HER BLOG and eventually ask me to help her -.- , makes no sense at all ! tmrw geo and physics , knn , dead lahh -.- sua , tmrw rot on seat ; haha ,

bye,
people say loves doesnt last , but one day , that ring will definitely be on your finger , my promise to you alright ♥
darnerl.

ps , anyone got any blogshop selling baggggsss ? o.o

2010-08-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

My noob girlf , asking me to update my blog , oh well , have to listen , OH , that noob of mine is playing her audi and dont want me play with her ! :[ , scared i own her i think ! :P MHAHAHAHA , AYEAYEAYE , btw , today that orhjiao bday , HAPPY BDAY OJ ! Grow taller lahh wtf -.- haha . okay , continue go audi find my noob girlf le , SO MANY FREE FOR WHAT AH AUDI ! >:[

bye,
(;L) you much lahh , you yes you , c.xinyi :P , sweet liao lahh horh .
darnerl .

Babyy :B

2010-08-14T14:46:00.002+08:00

Hello, im so good to help Mr Darnerl to update his fucking dead blog :B HAHAHAH .___.
But seriously i have nothing to help him post about leh, someone help me. LOL! Ohya, he is currently at Oj's house celebrating Oj's birthday, Happy Bithday Oj :D Grow taller eh, hahaha. He sure having fun there and im waiting for mummy to go out with me, boreddieme ): Ok, i have nothing to post already nah, goodbye. :B

2010-07-23T14:20:00.003+08:00

back from school , and tired as hell .

bye,
You may not be the perfect one , but its just that this time , its the unperfect one who is the reason for my breath to go on ♥
darnerl.

girl you know i love you ♥

2010-07-20T22:20:00.005+08:00

tday serious was not my day , fell sick again ? -.- im getting weak i guess , am i ? -.- , fuck luhh olevel listening , even though raining , need leave sch at 2.15 latest -.- , ran out , drenched > home > comp > tired > now > going bed -.-

bye,
sometimes , your words seriously hurts . but girl you know , unless you tells me to , i will not stop waiting ♥ cause you`re the one , the reason , why my breath goes on .
darnerl.

i wonder , do you know how much i miss you right now ? goodluck on your competition and exam , i know you can , i knew you could ♥

2010-07-19T23:05:00.003+08:00

ended sch at 12.50 > homed > bball > slept > woke > going to sleep . what a sleepy day -.- head hurts damn much can , headache till can die -.-

bye,
it only takes you , just you , to complete my life ♥
darnerl.

zhi yao ni kai xin jiu xing le ♥

2010-07-18T05:00:00.003+08:00

Yawnssss , woke up suddenly , my whole body is burning inside -.- back to bed .

bye,
cause , you`re my last love ♥
darnerl.

imy ♥

2010-07-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

i feel sooo deadddd -.-

bye,
define me as a naive person bahh , ill rather you used me , so atleast , if its just a day , i could use that one day to tell you , ily ♥
darnerl.

epic fail .

2010-07-16T21:37:00.002+08:00

Shagged , aft a few games of ball at court just now , im running fever now -.- its so fluffy im gona die ! , im addicted to saying it . today no cartoon . haha .

bye,
cause , if im given a flower everytime i miss you , ill be walking through a whole garden right now ,& because , girl , all this while , someone have been missing from my life , and finally i realized all i ever need is you to be the last girl of mine , will you ? ♥
darnerl.

ITS SO FLUFFY IM GONA DIE ! ! !

2010-07-15T20:05:00.004+08:00

hello ! , im here to update my blog to add some cartoons in my post too , someone was
complaining no cartoon ! so i could not argue back and had to put some cartoons on top .

bye,
if i have to give you 12345678910 reason to tell you `why is it you` , it`ll all be because ily ♥ .
darnerl.

bahbahbahbahbahbahbah , btw , is that yellow guy fluffy ? o.o

2010-07-12T22:51:00.001+08:00

hi , bye .

bye,
never . give . up .
darnerl.

IM A BIG ROUND TOMATO !

2010-07-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

So noone warned me about this month being the `let you hear what you dont wantna hear` month ? , and one by one , day by day , people trying to make me breakdown ? okay fine , i brokedown , happy or what ? .

bye,
days you can wait and endure prove how much worthy , how much you care , how true you are to the person ? lets face it , its all bullshit isnt it ? .. its just another way of making me feel the pain slowly .
darnerl.

i dont wantna say anything , i just wantna sleep and hopefully i die .

2010-07-11T03:43:00.001+08:00

Do you know , that actually , im wrong ? the pain im going through is breaking me down .

bye,
im actually not that strong .
darnerl.

.... fuck this .

2010-07-09T20:27:00.002+08:00

im broken. happy ? im fucking broken .

bye,
life`s just sucked when i got no more reason to go on.
darnerl.

Define me , as a loser .

2010-07-08T19:43:00.001+08:00

If this is what its fated to be , ill take it .

bye,
I lost , i cant be compared . I give up alright .
darnerl.

fuck my life seriously , if i had to die right now , ill take the quickest way to be dead .

2010-06-30T03:36:00.001+08:00

blogging at this time cause i just woke up .

bye,
-'- friends.
darnerl.

seriously , ima not be quiet and swallow everything now , ima fight for myself instead of just being the dumbfuckshitdog out there who just keeps quiet for friendship . it doesnt pay to be kind .

2010-06-25T06:26:00.002+08:00

fag dog -.- , holidays just arnt right , feels like ive been through so little -.- ma de , so fast . now skyping with kin and oj , shannon idk in or not , no talk de -.- playing this server what localms de , im sooo fucking addicted alright ? -.- cui , wallet empty , what fuck also empty , sat movie anyone ? o.o , contact me bahh ,

bye,
fuck you.
darnerl.

you`re an idiot , yes you , the one looking at this , dulan mah ? good .

hahahah .

2010-06-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

cui siahh today -.- work work work . -.- tired niao ,

bye,
tmr , SP Yes thing -.-
darnerl.

i thought ive got over you , but actually , i didnt .

2010-06-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

-.- FUCK . MY . LIFE . THANK . YOU . VERY . MUCH .

bye,
FUCK . MY . LIFE .
darnerl.

FUCK . MY . LIFE .

2010-06-07T17:45:00.001+08:00

FML TTM ! , irritated . knn -.- , eh serious lahh horhh , i feel like spouting every single shit i have in my mind out , but i give you the god damn respect you deserve , i did all i could although its abit last minute , but fuck , i didnt said i wont study anymore ? come on lahh horhh , throw me in hostel lahh , call all my friends and go fuck them up . cb , the more control i get , the more i wont study , freedom ? pui . think i aint concern for my studies ? think again dude . fuck my life LIKE SERIOUSLY ?!

bye,
knn , dulan.
darnerl.

serious apologies for full of scoldings here and there , but just wantna vent it out . -.-

2010-06-07T05:25:00.002+08:00

-.- ! , bored like hell . second post dunno for what also . BORED LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !@#!@# , i wantna go on court later . with ky , pal , bryanCx maybe .

bye,
nerd.
darnerl.

im going uppppppppp , i just feel like typing that . idk why either <:

2010-06-07T04:01:00.000+08:00

4:03 in the morning -.- and i need to go to school at 8 later , fuck ! haha , trying to find pictures for pal fish blogshop . haha . nothing to do mahzxc , but without any progress wdf .

bye,
wdfbbqsauce , haha .
darnerl.

really wantna text you girl .

2010-06-05T18:05:00.002+08:00

bored fuck -.-

bye,
-.-
darnerl.

girl , i miss you . but i guess , we just woulnt be the way i wished for .

2010-06-01T16:08:00.003+08:00

nice , i have a unreasonable , act like he give a shit father . ground me and want me to study ? , haha , as if i will . ground me more , comeon . the only person i wish not to remember my birthday is fucking you , dont give a damn better . i didnt ask for your concern anyway .

bye,
fml._.
darnerl.

...

2010-05-29T01:58:00.001+08:00

while waiting for that fucking host to start the dota game , i have time to post , but idk what to post , so simply say hi and bye .

bye,
fuck my life alright ?
darnerl.

holiday seems bored -.- , i cant fucking go nowhere .
& girl , im wonder how are you feeling now -.-

2010-05-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

lifes a bullshit , fuck you .

bye,
fml.
darnerl.

i miss you just so much .

2010-05-25T22:40:00.001+08:00

i got no mood today at all for the whole cca till evening , shall not say much , aft homed , take a shower and dota once with pal and jun , then right here blogging .

bye,
.......................................................
darnerl.

idk whats into me , idk whats happening to me , but how i thought i could let go slowly , but today the way i recalled worrying much for you , tells me i cant , and somehow it fucking hurts , when you seems to just tells me just dont worry for you . cause girl , i want you to know , bad past memories that you had in life doesnt bring bad present .

2010-05-23T22:50:00.003+08:00

well , life`s been going not what i expected , mye was a flunked , but managed to got over that , and made a decision to focus on all my test and major exam aft june , dont wantna flunk again , but fuck , family has been a fuck , why doesnt parents just say i believe you could do better the next time , but just scold and curse bout what we did badly -.- , fuck that , then , feeling damn corrupted nowadays , really down , man , fml , hope i die in 2012 .

bye,
-.-
darnerl.

although im feeling really fucked up , but when i heard from you , your 1 word text , your moodless voice when i called you , you really made me worried , but when you finally gave me a hahaha , it really brought my mood back , just seeing you smile girl , mean everything to me .

2010-05-05T00:32:00.002+08:00

Fuckkk lahhh ! ive been so tired nowadays , and im becoming smaller liao , i need and i MUST go to gym on a regular basis liao , FUCK YOU ! , hmmmm , today kana send home to cut hair , fuck , i alr got my hair cut ytd and today again ? comeon , short enough liao lorhh , now i cut even more like toot ._. then came back sch at 1pm sharp -.- , aft school went on court for a game then home and i fell asleep ? that happen rarely you know ? ._. i seldom take naps , but today tired die me idk why , i turn on my comp and i was staring at it instead of playing it , totally nerd , k tmr finding weikong and get some last minute revision before that damn maths mock test , so fuck you and ,

bye,
somehow im getting happier day by day ,
darnerl.

waiting for your papers to be over , till then , i guess ive to wait like i always did .

2010-05-02T00:59:00.001+08:00

ma de , so sian , someone entertaining me on phone now , ahahahaha ! im bored mahzxc ._. ,

bye,
oh btw , idk why but im being called a alien suddenly -.-
darnerl.

bye pigs .

2010-04-26T22:31:00.001+08:00

nerd , been missing posting for quite a few long days , and OMFG , mye is just round the corner ._. , -.- ima get fucked by test questions . hmmmmm , planning for after exams fun , lol .

bye,
wo hao xiang ni ._.
darnerl.

Oh is it time to sing ?

2010-04-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes , i hate myself for not being an orphan . -.- sometimes , just feel like im so normal . sometimes , i seriously hate the fuck out of myself .

bye,
why is it when im thinking you and me is so close , but somehow we just seems so far .
darnerl.

nerd .. FUCK YOU , LIFE IS A BITCH .

2010-04-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

finally , im off to bed after tonning the whole fucking day from ytd ._.
good bye peoples of the world.

bye,
just cant get to bed.
darnerl.

i dont give a fucking damn ? or do i still have some concern for you ?

2010-04-18T07:18:00.002+08:00

YAWNSSSSSSSSSS ! !@##!@#!@#!@#!@# , TIREDDDDD ! but not sleepy . wdf ? lol .
ton out dota ladder for whole night , and guess what ? now im currently having to mood to study , thats fucking random , haha . MYE coming le luhh , darnerl aint going be a failure , morons >,> , haha , yes you , moron -.- so maybe for the next week and more if there is , i aint playing no more , study study study , alright , mr motivation please come to me thanks .

bye,
-.-
darnerl.

...

2010-04-17T02:20:00.002+08:00

maybe giving up is the best decision i should have made from the start

seriously , fuck this circle of life , you turn and turn , and when you think you`re so close , actually its so far away from you .

bye,
now i finally understand , what hurts the most , is when you seems to not care.
darnerl.

.. ?

2010-04-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

didnt post quite awhile uhhh ? . today had capt ball competition ? lol , came in first with mac chew , kin , weikong , shannerd , terry. lol . went home after that , waste of time -.- . this few days rain everytime in evening plus , and im addicted to drenching , nice .

bye,
what hurts the most , is when you didnt seems to be giving us a chance , when you`re aside crying bout your problems , and im right there seems like useless to be giving any help.
darnerl.

if you`ll really know , how much you meant to me.

2010-04-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY FINISHED MY BLOGGER`S PROBLEMATIC MIXPOD AFTER 2DAYS -.- , is it just me or everyone also facing with mixpod`s problem , 2songs i renewed .

okay , today was the most shitty day ever , my napfa was like ya , not up to standard for myself , i set some goals which i didnt accomplish , yeah great ._. , i was like sooooooo mad and pulling a long face throughout the whole napfa if anyone would notice -.- next just went back home straight , went for basketball games , and home again , im tired nowww , and feeling seriously straight down to the bottom of the earth .. -.- ,

bye,
why does it seems like you dont give a damn anymore , am i letting this fading happen again ?
darnerl.

every circle of life , you`ll be beat down by ELL-OHHH-VEEE-EEE once , nothing we could do , the only thing we can do is to get straight up right after the beating .

oh yahh -.- , i`ll be locking up my blog to private sooner or later , soo anyone who still even bother to read my post , tagg my box with your email thanks .

2010-04-06T22:52:00.001+08:00

fuck my life seriously.

bye,
really felt like a failure when she`s crying , and im not there beside her.
darnerl.

fuck off thanks.

2010-04-04T04:49:00.000+08:00

goodnight peepos

bye,
till now im worried , missing , waiting.
darnerl.

hahaha -.-

2010-04-02T02:19:00.002+08:00

siann , ulimate sleepy nowww , but hungry , so ill eat first . today went to that 4.6km cross country , fuxk you , waste my time go there walk walk see see feed some mosquito and home , next went to amkHUB for movie and also walkwalk see see , double fuxk you , diary of the wimpy kid , lets rename it into diary of the kid who makes you fall asleep , i can sleep there for as long as the movie goes on and will not wake up just because that movie is kind of great but boring , next had a dumb amkhub catching , hooray for childhood revive -.- lets just skip that , and then homed , today ladder matches didnt go as well as i thought it`ll be , game ruiners , noob nerd , lets not say that , lets just say , they are not experience or something teammates and lag , great , ruined ladder stats , -.- ill get a quick bite now and go to bed and kun ,

bye,
wonder if she`s fine.
darnerl.

giving up on something you want to have is just proving you`re weak , making a move and shout it all out and in the end having what you want proves you are strong and being strong is the best way to choose.

2010-03-29T13:13:00.002+08:00

seriously fuxk one lahh horh , hmm , lets play a riddle .

this particullar word consist of two person , they`ll fuxk spam you calls and ask you where the hell are you , what time are you getting your ass back home but will not fuxking care to ask did you have fun outside , are you having great time .

they says they wont want to lock you up like a bird , but they wont want you to go out even if its just for something that wont take up much time , they take the cash they give you to press it on you , they fuxking wants you to help in something but when times comes they will just give you a NO YOU CANT THIS YOU CANT THAT , whatever you`ve done , they wont think its enough , they want more more more , hmm now i realised why so many retarded kids jump off building aye , maybe they arent retarded , SO FUXK YOU , FUXK THE WORLD ,

bye,
nerddddd .
darnerl.

nothing much to post , so no phrases today .

2010-03-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

blogging , nothing much , bye .

bye,

hours and minute till its your bday.

darnerl.

i just lost my words when im texting you , it just seems so far away when you`re so close , people told me waiting to show it to you i aint fooling is the best , i did that , but just idk why , noone even you will understand , im not the past of yours where hurt is stayed , im the present hoping to just be the future to erase the past from you , but somehow , i cant .

2010-03-24T21:51:00.003+08:00

hi peepos of the whole fuxking boring world , im blogging not by my comp , keyboard , mouse , screen . cause that bastard is sick so it has been sent for repair , pretty sway aye ? -.- , k i apparantly have nothing much to post since im talking crap for like the past few seconds , ive watch UP , FAST AND FURIOUS 4 , NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 Today straight , knn , no dota , no nothing , dont want to think much , since its impossible as that text has been rounding in my mind , wdf , why im talking so much , k bye , wait till my comp fix bahh ,

bye,

sian , fuxk off world , nothing matters to me.

darnerl.

sour , sweet to in the end bitter , thats how the ELL-OHH-VEE-EEE thing is , but sometimes , road ends before tasting the sweetness , it just somehow jump in the flash to bitter from sour , we cant complain , we just have to accept the fact willingly then .

2010-03-15T04:25:00.004+08:00

im getting hungry right now , lets call for M`Delivery -.- ima do that ! , arbo ill become small in size liao -.- , i need food , proteins to build up body you know -.- i cant go on diet , idk why the hell im saying all this , its just random and im just saying ;) , went out today to wander around at the start of afternoon today , i cant believe i survived 2hours of walking without knowing where to go all by myself -.- , took my wallet , handphone and just went out , walk walk walk walk walk walk -.- in the ended up at bllk 500+ -.- , i was doing nothing and thinking bout alot of stuffs to keep me from not being so bored , bout games , bout stuffs that happened , and then i went back -.- 1week holidays starts tmr , and i want to have some plans on going out , but also , idk why , whenever i blog , mood starts to go down and down and down and eventually smiles start to disappearrrrrrrrrr , this is damn stupid , oh well , ill go watch some movies or stuffs like that now ,

bye,
whats the price to erase you completely from me ?
darnerl.

love is like a mountain , hard to climb, but once you get to the top , the view is beautiful but just when i thought i was halfway more to the top , you woke me up to let me realised thats only a dream and eventually i was broken down by the truth you gave me and the hard fell i got , and whats left in me was the memories of the dream i had once .

--> zhen-en :D : orh , sorry , hi :]

2010-03-14T02:26:00.002+08:00

aye , posting my blog right now as you can see , nothing much bout today , just dotaing all day long , i aint going to stay home on holiday , so any peepos have any suggestion where to go ? boredddd all day long , ima see who wants to go out later then , oh yah its like 1months or near 1months since the `breakdown darnerl`s fuxking soul` thing occured and still have some peepos some sort of like counselling me ? lol thanks but yahh , the thoughts , feelings , scar and confidence isnt that much of lets say , recovered , okay , what over is over , ill wait , yah , but there wont be any results , as i know it , and yah ill go on and on and on and on , who says getting blocked and tempo injured by some obsticles in your life is the end ? so yah ;D . oh yahh , STILL NO PEEPOS WANT TO GO GYM ? WDF ? , what the hell is wrong with 21st century kids , hahaha , nehhmind ill wait too for that -.- im fuxking tired , ima jump on my bed without falling off , lol random says ,

bye,
know when to stop , cancel the wait , go on , with a big huge smile.
darnerl.

1 , 2 , 3 , 4 ... days i count , its gona be your special day soon , but ive decided to just walk away , seeing you may just force out the memories ive been trying to put down under my soul and then breaks it down once again.

2010-03-13T12:29:00.002+08:00

12:30 nowww , ive got nowhere to go -.- , holidays are here uhhh ? 1week , ima gona , drink , drink , drink , drink , drink. its this time , to forget every single shit thats bothering my fuxking life , sometimes , its just seems gone , but it isnt , sometimes , to overcome what you`re facing , is to overcome yourself first , ytd went to school yah , slept throughout ss -.- , i was freakishly tired , then el , great , was like two free period , i slept too , yah then the rest was fuxktard lessons -.- , k then aft school bahbah here bahbah there and home to dota , was surfing the cyber world and came across a quote ` Giving up doesnt mean its the end of everything , giving up mean when you`re weak , you have the inner courage to give up on one thing , and not to avoid , giving up also mean its just a break , not the end of the whole thing.` hmm , lol , pretty meaningful yeah ? -.- ill go out get some lunch now ,

bye,
peepos i wantna have some holiday gyming session , anyone intrested ? -'-
darnerl.

a short memories lies beneath my soul.

2010-03-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

randomly found this , and boom , i fell into pieces suddenly -.- k i guess the pathetic is for me then -.- , today went to school and yah , mr chai seems fuxking sadded as only 9+ people came for his remedial and he in the end canceled it i guess ? okay im bad , i just want to go up and put my books and leave , and i act as though i was going to his remedial , okay fuxk me then , next then went home since i was having this terrible headache -.- , till now , its still not going out of my head , -'- , tmr lets see how then -.- ill go to bed now ,

bye,
stop trying when you know it wont happen again. but somehow , im not the same.
darnerl.

love is when you let it go at the time you really had no choice anymore , if it comes back to you it is and was meant to be yours , if it doesnt , it never was . i guess , it never was for me then . day by day , its getting closer to that birthday of hers -.- i really doesnt know how walk up to her on that day , maybe i shouldnt .

2010-03-09T19:22:00.001+08:00

Sometime , it hurts when someone meant everything to you , but you meant nothing to her .

2010-03-09T18:07:00.002+08:00

damn , im like so not studying well , gona need to really focus on opening that old boring books and study -.- sooooo how great can i still be ? oh yeahhh , any peepos want to go with me in search of another muaythai gym and join me in weekly normal gyming session ? two different things ahhh , instead of just going out and lazing here and there , manzxc ive changed , HAH . didnt went to sch today luhh , just didnt felt like it , so slept slept slept , then wake wake wake , then dota dota dota , then do some self weight lifting and pumping then dota again , lol . tmr will be some how boring school day till 2.30pm , its like going into school to bored yourself then come out as a zombie , somehow its weird , when you`re having lessons , you will feel like sleeping and sleep , but once the school bell goes off , we`re alive and kicking , ahahaha , oh yahh , ytd went out to ssc then went to chambers in jun leng`s brother`s mazda.3 , thanks aye , and then went to chambers play for like 1hour plusplus then out of there and went back to ssc with ky and yuxuan and jun , then arcade , boring time , then went to sp and go on court for awhile , that was when i got really moody but didnt show it out , idk why either :O , hahahah , then home -.- hmm , later post other stuffs bahh , need to continue my self home gyming ,

bye,
fuxk life
darnerl.

sometimes what people says make sense , but we just doesnt listen , when people says give up cause of some reasons , thats the time when you should be awake , and give it all up , theres no point in doing something which wont have a result you want , atleast you had the memories before , so why not remember the memories , keep it in your mind and move on with life .

2010-03-07T23:21:00.003+08:00

COMEON MANNZXC , I NEED TO IMRPOVEEEEEE IN DOTAAAAAA -.- oh ! hello readers :D , lol. hmmmm , yahhhh , i did my second training of dota today , AGAIN ? -.- like , wdf ? . i intended to go out when i received call from CSHM , but didnt , too lazy yahh , oh yah , i forced my momma to topup two of my timezone card at ssc as there`s this promo that shannon have been telling me ? what you topup 50 , another 50 will be added which make it 100 , and so yahh , two of my card has 100credits now , MAX TUNE ANYONE ? !! AHAHAHAHAHA , although its like second or third time im playing but peepos , practices makes perfect . and oh , that lim kin yeow is become a max tune addict liao , really , i call him this few days , all ill get is `i at arcade , you ?` , FUXK YOU ! now noone wants to dota with me , make me one pathetic squatting down kid in the corner , PAL IS ANOTHER ONE ! AHAHAHA , he is into his maple thingy , which make his head look like a mushroom now since he play too much mushroom game , great , ive made out a joke , ahah , im thinking whether should i attend school tmr , its just till 10 , boreeddddieeeemeeeee leyyyy ! k luhh , i go sleep now , i tmr wake up , see if i want to go luhh ! ahahahaha , nahhhhh , but nehhmind , im tired anyway -.- so ill stop this compo posting and go to bed .

bye,
oh yahh , look look ahh , i learn this new phrase few days ago , listen , ok 1 , 2 , 3 .. CHAO OUTSIDE MOTHER MUDDAAAAF*XKER , its gotten from a youtuber name peterchao or something ? -.-
darnerl.

although you might not feel okay , you might need time to heal some stuffs still piercing through your fragile heart , but when someone tells you really to let go , its time to let go , although i might not feel 100% well , but since that someone tells me over and over again to forget and let it go , its time for me to do it. life`s simple , you make choices and never look back , so now , ill make one that will hurt , but will never ever look back , again.

2010-03-07T02:31:00.003+08:00

ima go to bed now , fuahahahahahahahahaha , finally i feel some tiredness in me -.- ive broken my record , dota-ed for straight 11hours today , from 2pm till now -.- idk why either , just being quite moodless in the afternoon , lol. k bye peepos , bye earth , bye comp , bye thinkings and thoughts , bye mouse , bye keyboard , bye speakers , bye flatscreen monitor , bye dota , bye everyone :D , am i very random today ? atleast i did laugh and smile right ? pretty good huh ? haha.

bye,
sometimes , running away wouldnt help , letting the person know what you think will do better , its better than hiding in the dark , and suffering alone.
darnerl

feelings , consist of thoughts and stupidity . love , consist of feelings , thoughts and stupidity . and when you meet someone you know you have the feelings on , it consist of you having some of those stupid thoughts of loving her or him.

2010-03-06T23:19:00.003+08:00

one to three to five to seven , lol random type out de . hmmm , today was superr boreddieme day leyy , at home , dota from 2pm till now , maybe ive made this day self training dota day -.- realised im getting used to letting things go easily now , starting to forget bout the past since yah , like what pal and friends told me MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY , that was random too :b DAYS AGO , she wouldnt care she wouldnt care , so why be so broken down for her ? hmmm , tmr ahhh , ima go topup my timezone card with 50 bucks to poof it into 100bucks so ill go max tuning -.- sudden urge of playing , at ssc luhh , then ill go and try to get some banglah to buy some cans of drinks for me :D , IM REALLY BECOMING ALCOHOLIC , but it just helps in forgeting stuffs , so who cares . anyw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHANNON TANGGGGG !@#!@#!@# , GROW TALLER , GROW SMARTER AND ALL THE BEST YA -.- although sad to say i cant make it to your steamboat birthday party with the only intention to steal your alcohol to drink , but still happy birthday :D

bye,
when its time to turn around and go back to the start , no matter how hurtful it can be , you`ll have to do it , thats what i learn from 21feb10 -.-
darnerl

love is simple , one way road , you persevere through it and win it all , or you give up and lost it all , but it seems that , ive persevered or maybe tried to keep on persevering but now ive been given no other choice to be asked to give up and lose it all .

2010-03-05T00:25:00.004+08:00

what the fuxxxxxxxxxk ? -.- i slept till now from 4 or 5 , with my phone hanging as im talking to jun when i was falling asleep -.- wow , lol. k ill post once , just once. hmmmm , i went back quite early today , idk why , nothing to do mahzxc -.- monday b girls finals , should i be going to support with kang or something ? LOL -.- wastage of time actually . hmmm , feeling damn tired although sleep so long -.- nothing to do le luhh k , idk what to post actually , great.

bye,
getting used to missing you.
darnerl.

-.- getting used to missing you , wanting to see you. its going to be your birthday soon uhhh.

2010-03-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

I SWEAR IT SUXK MANZXC , idk what to do -.- im bored , im feeling weird although not much hurt like before , im KIND OF missing that particular someone again , im just a noob -.- okay , today celebrate coral lim shanshan 15th auntie`s birthday , went to admiral hill , steamboat , pool. i realised im going to be a alcoholic soon , but somehow , it helps me to forget stuffs , its like drug -.- see banglah workers outside , first thing ill plan to do is to ask them buy alcohol for me -.- which i did today -.- WHAT IN THE BLUE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME MANZXC ! k luhh , lets try sleeping later , ill go watch some shows now bahh i guess .

bye,
forget ? or continue persevering on ?
darnerl .

she said before to forget her , but somehow today , i walk and keep thinking i saw her when i didnt .. ?

2010-03-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

bahbahbahbahbahbahbububububububububububububububububu .

bye,
...
darnerl.

im still feeling weird inside ...

2010-02-28T18:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes while you think everything is going smoothly and you`re living every day well , this feelings you get call love haunts you suddenly , its simple , there wont be another route to take anymore , its either you continue to persevere for the reason why you got the feeling , and let the someone know in the end and win it all , or you choose give up half way and lose everything including the someone you had that feeling on , and so , lose it all .

bye,
..
darnerl.

ps , sorry to those trouble i caused ytd , maybe i drank abit too overboard and became drunk unknowingly , im just sorry , ill try to be back to normal , if i can .

2010-02-25T20:15:00.004+08:00

seriously , it really seems like every single thing is against me now , maybe ending all this myself will be a better choice .

bye,
fuxk off please.
darnerl.

ive finally reach my limits , please dont piss me off. i swear , it wont be the normal me you see in the past , anymore.

2010-02-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

i found a song , which really seriously can describe all im feeling nowwww , since pal wantna know , ill post it thennn ... oh yah , today ? idk bahh , i told that noob jiayan ill buckup le , lol. nothing to post , no mood to post , ill just post the lyrics bahh .

I love the way it feels when you touch my hand
Don't wanna let you go
I love the way you say that I am your man
Don't understand why we can't go on and go on
Don't understand why
You don't belong in my arms

Ohh

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life

Ohh

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

And I still cry for you
And I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
And I still long for you
And I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

I still cry for you
I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
I still long for you
I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

I still cry for you
I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
I still long for you
I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

2010-02-23T23:26:00.003+08:00

this is just SUPPERRRR STUPID -.- went to arcade today , to fuxk out all my problems , didnt quite worked , trained to sp , met weikang , walked to kin house , shannon and kin followed , when i was seriously just thinking , what if i saw her later , what should be my first reaction ? i guess ill just walk away , in the end , wdf ? my phone buzzed -.- she sawed me -.- , nehhmind skip bahhhh , walked to sp , arcade , then bball with yuxuan , kin , shannon and plenty phillip people -.- i didnt played normal , instead i just went bashing , and if this is a real competition , ill have foul out of court le , chiong straighthead with them , elbow , slammed all i could , fustrate out everything , and now i am here , blogging. this is just damn superrr stupid , i wants to give up , i wants to forget , i didnt thought that this will be so serious to me at first when the `iam sorry` eventually comes , but now , it really does -.- KAOPEIII LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH , like maybe what pal , yuxuan they all says `she wont give a shit , its her lost not yours , continue on lahh` , but somehow , im just still that stupid , happy mahzxc darnerl , you`re being a complete fool now -.- ima blog everything out to see if i can just let some thoughts out and go to bed , but it dont seem to be working . !#!@#dsfGAKDJHFASKHFDKJASHCXVNBKJB23!@3KJHSFKGJHADKFHASDF ! i dont know till now , why everytime ill unknowingly walk to the same route we used to take to reach my house , why ill walked to places we went before even if its just a few days time whenever i passes the places or waiting for someone else.

bye,
does she mean what she texted me ?
darnerl.

aaron { personally } : yah if you`re viewing , thanks for taking out some time in the future to yah , what ive told you , and for the favour bahh. best wishes and last long bahh with H bahh k thats all .

meishi : lol.

Alicia : lol , i lazy to relink , i tmr relink bahh .. k .

2010-02-22T22:47:00.002+08:00

为什么正当我真心喜欢上一个傻傻的她时，她又要把我恨恨的推倒。我真的不知道我现在应该做什么了。我现在只希望看见你多一次的笑，我就满足了。

i walk and walk around to places we`ve been before although just in a short few days , memories flashes , and suddenly , im awake , and realised i walked to the places unknowingly .. the path back home , is just that rough to walk , the bed back home , is filled with all that past few days , the mind back in me , is all about you.

bye ,
... i just hope he keep his promise to take out some of his time to give you the happiness.
darnerl.

.... im broken down.

2010-02-15T02:25:00.002+08:00

28 days left,

its 2:27am now , im sleepy but doesnt want to sleep. i dont know why either , i just keep turning to my msn to check who is online. nehhmind , ima go to bed now bahh. sleeping is when you stop thinking right , tmr noone knows , lets just see bahh .

bye,
maybe ive choosen to continue to daze into the sky , waiting .
darnerl.

i really dont know whether to talk or to forget , but im sure ill fail in forgeting , as you`re the only one . i miss you , but i cant tell you , i love you , but i cant love you , i saw you , but i cant approach you ..

2010-02-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

29 days left ,

went out for cny , went to my uncles place and to my dad`s mum place to eat. back , she left me a offline message , im confused , whether am i going to speak to her now , or continue trying to forget her as what she wants me to do and not talk to her for the next 29days , sometimes , isnt it weird , when you want a person to forget bout you just because you doesnt want to see the person in pain , does this mean care but not telling him or does this mean she really doesnt care what i hope for ? anyway , ima this blog is sooner or later private.

bye,
29days left.
darnerl.

valentines day and why is this empty feeling inside me ? the wish that i had long ago bout making this a more special valentines day , i guess isnt happening anymore ..

2010-02-13T02:01:00.003+08:00

30days to go through everything , 30days to look back when i first met her , she hopes that i forget her , hahs .. i tried that for millions , thousands of time , and i failed everytime i tried. its not that easy to forget someone who you fell for unknowingly. and it goes the same for this time.

bye,
14thFeb is near , will i fail to do what im suppose to and talk to her again ?
darnerl.

30days is for me to forget , but somehow , at the start of the 30days , ive alr know , that duration is not for me to forget , its for me to see how far i can go , as im sure , at the end , she`ll still stay the perfect girl in my eyes.

2010-02-12T00:00:00.001+08:00

I GOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT OF QUESTION MARKS IN MY MIND NOW ..

bye,
somehow , although its just 1week , but i just have a weird missing feeling in me.
darnerl.

1,2,3,4 i count and count , 1week will be over then. i ! sort ! of ! really ! miss ! yoouuuuu ! -.- wdf ?

2010-02-07T14:10:00.001+08:00

我又在一次输给爱情了。

bye,
或许就能这样的喜欢你吧。
darnerl.

2010-02-07T01:45:00.002+08:00

.... got nothing much to say , i went out to pool. ate , back here.bye.

bye,
dont have the mood.
darnerl.

friends told me she doesnt seems to care so why do i bother, i tell myself i just wants to continue caring , but if she really wants me to ignore her , i cant but if thats really what she wants , then i got nothing to say. she told me she cant complete my life , i really hope its not the truth. but if thats really the truth , i really got nothing to say but just continue to care for her at a side not letting her know.

2010-02-04T21:39:00.001+08:00

today was the most moodless day ever ive had bahh. i just realised when someone says something which meant important to you , you`ll get really angry , with a clenched fist. k no more saying further or all will be leaked. wandered around after school and stayed to watch table tennis match for no reason-.- with bryanCX , oj they all bahh. k , bye-.- really moody now.

bye,
!@#!@#!@#!@#,
darnerl.

why is it that when she`s troubled with stuffs or moodless , i cant concentrate on doing something and whatever is in my mind is just a how to cheer her up ?

2010-02-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

double post , LOL , going sleep in a short while soon. superrrr tired le. anyw , sorry to all who have been asking me to smile but i cant de , now for some reason ill be cheerful again le bahh(: bye.

bye,
...
darnerl.

正当你觉得爱情对你来说已经变成一个随时都能得到的玩具时，在你生命里出现了一个改变一切，在你心目中没人比她还完美的傻傻的女孩时，你就会知道真正喜欢一个对你来说很重要的人的感觉是怎么样的了.

2010-02-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

Hi , Bye-.-

bye,
i really cant smile today.
darnerl.

i really dont know how she thinks. maybe im just nothing maybe i am not , AI DONT KNOW -.-

2010-02-01T22:36:00.001+08:00

realised didnt post yesterday , so ill post today .. just giving a post to entertain my readers. Hi , bye , hows your day , mine was bad , sick , fuxkup , really moody now , okay , bye.

bye,
it really seems like the whole world is against me now.
darnerl.

i just felt that im failing towards eevrything , i helped noob yx got back his happiness , but for me , i dont even know what i should do next , im just right here waiting , if waiting really could let her know one day that im right here whenever she needs me , ill wait till the end.

2010-01-31T10:17:00.002+08:00

morning post -.- i somehow move the bigbig heavy stone from my mind le bahh , but somehow , there isnt any sun in my mind at all. but whatever it is , as long as she have her smile on , then ill have mine.

bye,
(: ? ;( ?
darnerl.

said it out , she gave me a we`ll see , i saw it , was totally down , but her ahahahaha change everything again.