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Monday, March 29, 2010
seriously fuxk one lahh horh , hmm , lets play a riddle . this particullar word consist of two person , they`ll fuxk spam you calls and ask you where the hell are you , what time are you getting your ass back home but will not fuxking care to ask did you have fun outside , are you having great time . they says they wont want to lock you up like a bird , but they wont want you to go out even if its just for something that wont take up much time , they take the cash they give you to press it on you , they fuxking wants you to help in something but when times comes they will just give you a NO YOU CANT THIS YOU CANT THAT , whatever you`ve done , they wont think its enough , they want more more more , hmm now i realised why so many retarded kids jump off building aye , maybe they arent retarded , SO FUXK YOU , FUXK THE WORLD , bye, nerddddd . darnerl. nothing much to post , so no phrases today . Friday, March 26, 2010
blogging , nothing much , bye . bye, hours and minute till its your bday. darnerl. i just lost my words when im texting you , it just seems so far away when you`re so close , people told me waiting to show it to you i aint fooling is the best , i did that , but just idk why , noone even you will understand , im not the past of yours where hurt is stayed , im the present hoping to just be the future to erase the past from you , but somehow , i cant . Wednesday, March 24, 2010
hi peepos of the whole fuxking boring world , im blogging not by my comp , keyboard , mouse , screen . cause that bastard is sick so it has been sent for repair , pretty sway aye ? -.- , k i apparantly have nothing much to post since im talking crap for like the past few seconds , ive watch UP , FAST AND FURIOUS 4 , NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 Today straight , knn , no dota , no nothing , dont want to think much , since its impossible as that text has been rounding in my mind , wdf , why im talking so much , k bye , wait till my comp fix bahh , bye, sian , fuxk off world , nothing matters to me. darnerl. sour , sweet to in the end bitter , thats how the ELL-OHH-VEE-EEE thing is , but sometimes , road ends before tasting the sweetness , it just somehow jump in the flash to bitter from sour , we cant complain , we just have to accept the fact willingly then . Monday, March 15, 2010
im getting hungry right now , lets call for M`Delivery -.- ima do that ! , arbo ill become small in size liao -.- , i need food , proteins to build up body you know -.- i cant go on diet , idk why the hell im saying all this , its just random and im just saying ;) , went out today to wander around at the start of afternoon today , i cant believe i survived 2hours of walking without knowing where to go all by myself -.- , took my wallet , handphone and just went out , walk walk walk walk walk walk -.- in the ended up at bllk 500+ -.- , i was doing nothing and thinking bout alot of stuffs to keep me from not being so bored , bout games , bout stuffs that happened , and then i went back -.- 1week holidays starts tmr , and i want to have some plans on going out , but also , idk why , whenever i blog , mood starts to go down and down and down and eventually smiles start to disappearrrrrrrrrr , this is damn stupid , oh well , ill go watch some movies or stuffs like that now , bye, whats the price to erase you completely from me ? darnerl. love is like a mountain , hard to climb, but once you get to the top , the view is beautiful but just when i thought i was halfway more to the top , you woke me up to let me realised thats only a dream and eventually i was broken down by the truth you gave me and the hard fell i got , and whats left in me was the memories of the dream i had once . --> zhen-en :D : orh , sorry , hi :] Sunday, March 14, 2010
aye , posting my blog right now as you can see , nothing much bout today , just dotaing all day long , i aint going to stay home on holiday , so any peepos have any suggestion where to go ? boredddd all day long , ima see who wants to go out later then , oh yah its like 1months or near 1months since the `breakdown darnerl`s fuxking soul` thing occured and still have some peepos some sort of like counselling me ? lol thanks but yahh , the thoughts , feelings , scar and confidence isnt that much of lets say , recovered , okay , what over is over , ill wait , yah , but there wont be any results , as i know it , and yah ill go on and on and on and on , who says getting blocked and tempo injured by some obsticles in your life is the end ? so yah ;D . oh yahh , STILL NO PEEPOS WANT TO GO GYM ? WDF ? , what the hell is wrong with 21st century kids , hahaha , nehhmind ill wait too for that -.- im fuxking tired , ima jump on my bed without falling off , lol random says , bye, know when to stop , cancel the wait , go on , with a big huge smile. darnerl. 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 ... days i count , its gona be your special day soon , but ive decided to just walk away , seeing you may just force out the memories ive been trying to put down under my soul and then breaks it down once again. Saturday, March 13, 2010
12:30 nowww , ive got nowhere to go -.- , holidays are here uhhh ? 1week , ima gona , drink , drink , drink , drink , drink. its this time , to forget every single shit thats bothering my fuxking life , sometimes , its just seems gone , but it isnt , sometimes , to overcome what you`re facing , is to overcome yourself first , ytd went to school yah , slept throughout ss -.- , i was freakishly tired , then el , great , was like two free period , i slept too , yah then the rest was fuxktard lessons -.- , k then aft school bahbah here bahbah there and home to dota , was surfing the cyber world and came across a quote ` Giving up doesnt mean its the end of everything , giving up mean when you`re weak , you have the inner courage to give up on one thing , and not to avoid , giving up also mean its just a break , not the end of the whole thing.` hmm , lol , pretty meaningful yeah ? -.- ill go out get some lunch now , bye, peepos i wantna have some holiday gyming session , anyone intrested ? -'- darnerl. a short memories lies beneath my soul. Wednesday, March 10, 2010
randomly found this , and boom , i fell into pieces suddenly -.- k i guess the pathetic is for me then -.- , today went to school and yah , mr chai seems fuxking sadded as only 9+ people came for his remedial and he in the end canceled it i guess ? okay im bad , i just want to go up and put my books and leave , and i act as though i was going to his remedial , okay fuxk me then , next then went home since i was having this terrible headache -.- , till now , its still not going out of my head , -'- , tmr lets see how then -.- ill go to bed now , bye, stop trying when you know it wont happen again. but somehow , im not the same. darnerl. love is when you let it go at the time you really had no choice anymore , if it comes back to you it is and was meant to be yours , if it doesnt , it never was . i guess , it never was for me then . day by day , its getting closer to that birthday of hers -.- i really doesnt know how walk up to her on that day , maybe i shouldnt . Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Sometime , it hurts when someone meant everything to you , but you meant nothing to her . damn , im like so not studying well , gona need to really focus on opening that old boring books and study -.- sooooo how great can i still be ? oh yeahhh , any peepos want to go with me in search of another muaythai gym and join me in weekly normal gyming session ? two different things ahhh , instead of just going out and lazing here and there , manzxc ive changed , HAH . didnt went to sch today luhh , just didnt felt like it , so slept slept slept , then wake wake wake , then dota dota dota , then do some self weight lifting and pumping then dota again , lol . tmr will be some how boring school day till 2.30pm , its like going into school to bored yourself then come out as a zombie , somehow its weird , when you`re having lessons , you will feel like sleeping and sleep , but once the school bell goes off , we`re alive and kicking , ahahaha , oh yahh , ytd went out to ssc then went to chambers in jun leng`s brother`s mazda.3 , thanks aye , and then went to chambers play for like 1hour plusplus then out of there and went back to ssc with ky and yuxuan and jun , then arcade , boring time , then went to sp and go on court for awhile , that was when i got really moody but didnt show it out , idk why either :O , hahahah , then home -.- hmm , later post other stuffs bahh , need to continue my self home gyming , bye, fuxk life darnerl. sometimes what people says make sense , but we just doesnt listen , when people says give up cause of some reasons , thats the time when you should be awake , and give it all up , theres no point in doing something which wont have a result you want , atleast you had the memories before , so why not remember the memories , keep it in your mind and move on with life . Sunday, March 7, 2010
COMEON MANNZXC , I NEED TO IMRPOVEEEEEE IN DOTAAAAAA -.- oh ! hello readers :D , lol. hmmmm , yahhhh , i did my second training of dota today , AGAIN ? -.- like , wdf ? . i intended to go out when i received call from CSHM , but didnt , too lazy yahh , oh yah , i forced my momma to topup two of my timezone card at ssc as there`s this promo that shannon have been telling me ? what you topup 50 , another 50 will be added which make it 100 , and so yahh , two of my card has 100credits now , MAX TUNE ANYONE ? !! AHAHAHAHAHA , although its like second or third time im playing but peepos , practices makes perfect . and oh , that lim kin yeow is become a max tune addict liao , really , i call him this few days , all ill get is `i at arcade , you ?` , FUXK YOU ! now noone wants to dota with me , make me one pathetic squatting down kid in the corner , PAL IS ANOTHER ONE ! AHAHAHA , he is into his maple thingy , which make his head look like a mushroom now since he play too much mushroom game , great , ive made out a joke , ahah , im thinking whether should i attend school tmr , its just till 10 , boreeddddieeeemeeeee leyyyy ! k luhh , i go sleep now , i tmr wake up , see if i want to go luhh ! ahahahaha , nahhhhh , but nehhmind , im tired anyway -.- so ill stop this compo posting and go to bed . bye, oh yahh , look look ahh , i learn this new phrase few days ago , listen , ok 1 , 2 , 3 .. CHAO OUTSIDE MOTHER MUDDAAAAF*XKER , its gotten from a youtuber name peterchao or something ? -.- darnerl. although you might not feel okay , you might need time to heal some stuffs still piercing through your fragile heart , but when someone tells you really to let go , its time to let go , although i might not feel 100% well , but since that someone tells me over and over again to forget and let it go , its time for me to do it. life`s simple , you make choices and never look back , so now , ill make one that will hurt , but will never ever look back , again. ima go to bed now , fuahahahahahahahahaha , finally i feel some tiredness in me -.- ive broken my record , dota-ed for straight 11hours today , from 2pm till now -.- idk why either , just being quite moodless in the afternoon , lol. k bye peepos , bye earth , bye comp , bye thinkings and thoughts , bye mouse , bye keyboard , bye speakers , bye flatscreen monitor , bye dota , bye everyone :D , am i very random today ? atleast i did laugh and smile right ? pretty good huh ? haha. bye, sometimes , running away wouldnt help , letting the person know what you think will do better , its better than hiding in the dark , and suffering alone. darnerl feelings , consist of thoughts and stupidity . love , consist of feelings , thoughts and stupidity . and when you meet someone you know you have the feelings on , it consist of you having some of those stupid thoughts of loving her or him. Saturday, March 6, 2010
one to three to five to seven , lol random type out de . hmmm , today was superr boreddieme day leyy , at home , dota from 2pm till now , maybe ive made this day self training dota day -.- realised im getting used to letting things go easily now , starting to forget bout the past since yah , like what pal and friends told me MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY , that was random too :b DAYS AGO , she wouldnt care she wouldnt care , so why be so broken down for her ? hmmm , tmr ahhh , ima go topup my timezone card with 50 bucks to poof it into 100bucks so ill go max tuning -.- sudden urge of playing , at ssc luhh , then ill go and try to get some banglah to buy some cans of drinks for me :D , IM REALLY BECOMING ALCOHOLIC , but it just helps in forgeting stuffs , so who cares . anyw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHANNON TANGGGGG !@#!@#!@# , GROW TALLER , GROW SMARTER AND ALL THE BEST YA -.- although sad to say i cant make it to your steamboat birthday party with the only intention to steal your alcohol to drink , but still happy birthday :D bye, when its time to turn around and go back to the start , no matter how hurtful it can be , you`ll have to do it , thats what i learn from 21feb10 -.- darnerl love is simple , one way road , you persevere through it and win it all , or you give up and lost it all , but it seems that , ive persevered or maybe tried to keep on persevering but now ive been given no other choice to be asked to give up and lose it all . Friday, March 5, 2010
what the fuxxxxxxxxxk ? -.- i slept till now from 4 or 5 , with my phone hanging as im talking to jun when i was falling asleep -.- wow , lol. k ill post once , just once. hmmmm , i went back quite early today , idk why , nothing to do mahzxc -.- monday b girls finals , should i be going to support with kang or something ? LOL -.- wastage of time actually . hmmm , feeling damn tired although sleep so long -.- nothing to do le luhh k , idk what to post actually , great. bye, getting used to missing you. darnerl. -.- getting used to missing you , wanting to see you. its going to be your birthday soon uhhh. Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I SWEAR IT SUXK MANZXC , idk what to do -.- im bored , im feeling weird although not much hurt like before , im KIND OF missing that particular someone again , im just a noob -.- okay , today celebrate coral lim shanshan 15th auntie`s birthday , went to admiral hill , steamboat , pool. i realised im going to be a alcoholic soon , but somehow , it helps me to forget stuffs , its like drug -.- see banglah workers outside , first thing ill plan to do is to ask them buy alcohol for me -.- which i did today -.- WHAT IN THE BLUE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME MANZXC ! k luhh , lets try sleeping later , ill go watch some shows now bahh i guess . bye, forget ? or continue persevering on ? darnerl . she said before to forget her , but somehow today , i walk and keep thinking i saw her when i didnt .. ? Tuesday, March 2, 2010
bahbahbahbahbahbahbububububububububububububububububu . bye, ... darnerl. im still feeling weird inside ... |
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